Today I had planned to make a “What’s In My Bag” post but after the phone call I got this morning my mood just shifted south.
You see, I have always been a trying girl & I am constantly trying to make myself a better person but lately all my hard work just seems in vane. I am not a poor person but I am by no means rich. I have been blessed with amazing opportunities which have made for worthwhile experiences & stories, however, the “important” stuff just always seem to not work.
This morning I woke up with a runny nose, a headache & no drive to deal with the outside world…then I got a phone call that just pushed me deeper into my sad state of mind. I still forced myself to leave my home & head to work (47 minutes late).
When I got to work, the internet was down…GREAT!
By the time I got it to work I was done….or so I thought. I opened my personal email & saw this…
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame (Isaiah 50:7)
This was the opening verse of my daily devotionals.
I keep forgetting that I am not in this alone. I may have made some decisions without wise council but I am not my mistakes. I am a firm believer in Christ & I sometimes allow the noise in the world to make me feel like He’s pissed at me & my failures are my “punishment”. For a long time I believed that until I delved deeper into scripture study & learned that God loves us so much that he will never leave, we just have to stop acting a fool & trust him.
By now you must be wondering what I’m rambling about or what’s the point of this post. The point of this post is to encourage not only myself but anyone reading this that even though it is HARD it is not the end. Keep the faith…hold on strong…don’t let the negative manifest in your life…keep believing & most of all keep TRUSTING God.